I have certainly felt the calming touch of God, our Father this past few days as he as blessed us abundantly with people to help us wade through this bleak time period.
When I went to Mass last Sunday, I was late getting there and had to ask the usher to find me a seat. He led me to a section I rarely sit in and pointed next to a woman who had a bit of room beside her. As we were kneeling during Communion, my old RCIA sponsor walked by me, put her hand on my shoulder and said "I'm so sorry about your husband". The lady next to me overheard. She asked me "You aren't Kerry Wolf, are you?" I said yes, and she identified herself as the lady I had spoken to on the phone the day before. She leads the grief and bereavement group at our large parish and I had asked by phone if I could start coming even though I am not "bereaved" yet, but am indeed overwhelmed with grief. She had assured me I was welcome.
Anyhow, what a "God thing" to be placed next to her!
Following that, I went over to the RCIA class where I still hang out sometimes after the service--I have lots of friends still in RCIA or who are sponsors and I just needed to be with someone. I told a friend there that I really wished I could speak to someone who had walked the same path and who was about my age, perhaps with kids still at home, when they lost their spouse. She said in fact there was a lady right there she could introduce me to who had lost her spouse to cancer 6 years ago when she had 3 teen boys still at home. We sat in a side room and talked for 2 hours, and she helped me greatly. She wept openly as she shared her own pain with me, and her loneliness. She has been in contact with me daily since then, and wishes to walk this journey with me.
My beloved CRHP sisters have organized meals for me which have been a great relief as well, and sent beautiful cards, medals, listened to me cry, taken me out for coffee, and just generally been a blessing. And my sweet husband has agreed to see our Deacon to talk about the faith--he is coming over thursday night. Also he has agreed to talk to our priest, which is so wonderful! I just hope I don't say something dumb and mess it up now that he is interested.
Please keep us in your prayers and I promise to write about something more upbeat next time. This is just so overwhelming right now it's all I can think of. We see the oncologist next monday.